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Sunday, June 29, 2014

Liebster Blog Award

Dun dutta dun! My wonderful friend, Kristen, over at A Writer's Wife nominated me for a Liebster Blog Award, which means I basically have the best blog in the world! Haha, okay, no. It's quite the opposite. It actually means that no one reads my blog, and I could use a little help getting myself out there. It provides a way for bloggers who don't have many followers to share a little about themselves and then engage in some networking by passing it along to others.

Truthfully, I find these kinds of "All About Me" posts to be even more pretentious and egocentric than blogging itself, but what the heck, they're still a lot of fun. Who doesn't like talking about themselves?

So...

Rules
  1. List 11 facts about yourself.
  2. Answer the 11 questions asked by whoever nominated you.
  3. Nominate 9 bloggers with less than 300 followers and leave them a comment saying they've been nominated.
  4. Ask 11 new questions for your nominess.
  5. You cannot re-nominate the blog that nominated you.

11 Things You Never Wanted To Know About Me

1.     I LOVE to dance. And sing. But it’s not a good look (or sound).
2.    I’ve had social anxiety ever since I can remember, and while grad school has helped more than anything else, I still feel sick every time I give a presentation. Yes, I tend to be on the shy, quiet side, but I don’t like when people make comments about it or feel the need to point it out… like they think I don’t realize I’m an introvert. Believe me, it’s hard enough.
3.    I’m a perfectionist to a terrible fault. But it comes in spurts. I can be incredibly lazy one day (or for an extended period of time, say days, weeks, or months), and then suddenly I get all crazy productive to the point where it has to be absolutely perfect. Like I won’t stop cleaning until everything is shiny, wrinkle-free, and in its proper place, or I will obsess about the position of a chart legend or the size of my figures in a PowerPoint presentation, or you name it. I know slow and steady is best, but I’ve got mad cheetah skillz when it comes to procrastination.
4.    I am a gymnast, well… a former gymnast, and I competed Level 8 at the end of my almost 10-year career. I say “I am” because once you experience the number of hours of blood, sweat, and tears put in every week, you earn the right to call yourself a gymnast for life. Plus, I can still do a great handstand.
5.     I’m an academic masochist, and I have the proof. I have three degrees (two BS degrees and one MS degree) all in various scientific fields. And I’m currently working on my PhD in physiology. I can now honestly say that I don’t recommend being a student for life.
6.    I feel stupid every single day. Having all those degrees has done nothing to bolster my confidence. In fact, working on my PhD has probably definitely made things worse.
7.    Sometimes I just want to drop out of school, not work, have lots of babies, and be a stay-at-home mom. But then I remember the five months I took off when Miles was born before I knew whether I’d find a lab to work in. As much as I LOVED the time with Miles, I discovered that I get way too depressed staying at home. Working is necessary for my sanity. My dream is to land a good part time job in science (teaching or writing, perhaps?) someday so I can have the best of both worlds.
8.    I am prone to having road rage. It used to be a problem, but having Miles has greatly reduced the number of episodes I have to basically zero. The best gift Miles has given me is a lesson in patience.
9.    I have never broken a bone (knock on wood). It’s a miracle really, with the crazy extreme things I used to do as a child, especially with my gymnastics background. I feel bad about it now, but my parents’ furniture basically became an extension of the gym. And yet the only time I really got hurt was… see #10.
10. I’ve had two concussions. Again, I’ve had zero broken bones, but apparently I tend to concuss myself. The first happened when I was nine. My brother and I would pile up pillows on the carpet in front of the couch and then sit at the top facing backwards with our legs dangling down the back of the couch, which was not against a wall. We would then put our arms, legs, and heads into our oversized shirts and roll backwards onto the couch cushions and then onto the pillows on the floor. My younger sister thought this looked fun, and she wanted to join in. But when I was getting ready to roll down, my sister decided it would be funny if she pushed me the other way off the couch. So I fell forwards off the top of the couch, head first, landing directly on a toy car on the ground in the process. I don’t even want to talk about the second time, but alcohol may or may not have been involved.
11. My husband and I have the craziest dating / wedding story of anyone I personally know. I’m surprised I haven’t posted the story yet. Guess the few one or two of you who happen to read this will have to keep reading my blog to find out!

Questions Asked By Kristen at A Writer's Wife
  1. What is your favorite hobby and why?
My favorite hobby is drawing / painting, or really, arts and crafts in general. Even though I’m not that great, I find that expressing myself through art is very cathartic. It’s like therapy for the soul, and it gives me a way to escape from (and sometimes even helps me to resolve) whatever troubles I’m facing or quell my anxieties. Plus, I feel super productive when I actually make a piece of art I’m not embarrassed to display in my house!
  1. What is the book that spurred your love of reading? What was it about that book that drew you in?
I would say that as a kid, the first book that got me excited about reading was Hop on Pop by Dr. Seuss. I must have been about four. Once I got to elementary school, I still enjoyed reading the books we read in class, but I lost some of my love for reading. I was more focused on other activities like gymnastics, and despite my mom's encouragement, I would fight reading. I think this was largely due to the fact that it often gave me headaches. We figured out that was due to sinus troubles, and once that was resolved, I began to enjoy reading again. Harry Potter (of course!) was a huge turning point in my newfound love for reading at that time.
  1. Why did you decide to start blogging? How do you network your blog?
I have always wanted to keep a journal or diary to chronicle certain thoughts or memories throughout my life, but I’ve never been any good at keeping up with it. I thought perhaps blogging might be the solution since I’m constantly online anyways. Plus, I can personalize the blog any way I want, post cute pictures or inspirational quotes, and just get my random thoughts out. In doing so, I’ve found that blogging not only provides a forum for me to practice my writing skills, but it is also very cathartic.
  1. What is your favorite childhood memory?
This is a tough one. There were so many great times, and I’ve been very blessed and lucky. I guess I’ll go with when my little sister was born. I was almost six years old. I remember staying over at our neighbor’s house, and I was filled with excitement and anticipation. I was so happy to have a sister! When we found out she had Down syndrome, I was unfazed. I understood that she would be different, learn things slower, and look differently. I saw her karyotype with the extra chromosome 21 that identified her as special. It did not matter to me at all. I loved her unconditionally, and I still do to this day.
  1. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live and why?
I think it would be fun to live in various places, including overseas. What better way to experience different regions or cultures? Of course, some places are more appealing than others in terms of weather, natural beauty, or general safety, but I’ve discovered that home really is where the heart is. Cliché as it may be, I think that as long my family is with me, I could be happy in most places.
  1. Do you prefer to buy books or movies or check them out from the library/rental store?
I’m a big advocate of reusing, recycling, and saving money, so if I decide I want an actual copy of a book or movie, I will try to find a used copy at Bookman’s, other local stores, or online first before buying new. If I’m curious about a book or movie but not sure I’ll like it, I will check it out or rent it.
  1. What is the most important piece of advice you’ve learned or received that you would pass on to someone else?
Be humble, and don’t take yourself too seriously. I love this quote:

"True humility is not thinking less of yourself; it is thinking of yourself less."
- C.S. Lewis
  1. What is one event in your life that you believe has changed you (for better or worse)?
There are a few events that have happened in the last few years that have had a significant impact on my life. For instance, moving away from home and starting grad school did wonders for my personal growth, especially with regards to my separation anxiety and social anxiety issues. But I would say that the event that has really shaped me the most was becoming a mother. Surprise, surprise. Having a baby changes everything, right? Well, it’s true. I thought I had a decent idea of what motherhood would be like, challenging, lots of poopy messes, lack of sleep, the joy of your child hitting milestones, lots of cuteness and crying, an appropriate level of fear. But then it actually happened. It’s amazing how much of an impact a tiny human can have. From the empowering feeling you get after giving birth, to the overwhelming level of responsibility you feel and then actually learn to handle with (some level of) grace. From the strength and patience you find that you never new you had, to the new perspective you have on what’s really important in life. From the messes you no longer find cringe-worthy to the heart-wrenching worry you feel as you watch your precious baby sleep. I could go on and on. Having my son, Miles, has definitely changed me forever. And for the better at that.

9.   Do you collect anything? If so, what?
Not anymore. I already have too much stuff as it is, and I’ve been trying to de-clutter as much as possible. I’ve realized that simpler is better and less stress!
  1. What is your favorite holiday and why?
Probably Halloween. It’s just so much fun! I’ve also always had this fantasy of making my kids’ costumes. Funny because I can’t sew at all.
  1. Who in your life has influenced who you’ve become the most and why?
Definitely my husband, Matt. Without a doubt. He truly brings out the best in me and inspires me to be a better person. I have never met someone as kind, generous, and humble as him. He would give you the clothes off his back or his last penny if meant saving your life. He truly cares about others and takes a genuine interest in their lives and in what’s going on in the world around us. He has really opened my eyes to things I’ve never thought about and made me realize that there is so much more out there than my egocentric self. I used to err on the negative side, and he’s helped me find a more positive outlook on life. I could not be luckier to be married to such a wonderful friend and teacher. And he’s nerdy, smart, and sexy to boot!

Questions For My Nominees
  1. If you could be any color crayon, which color would you be and why?
  2. What is your favorite book, author, or reading material?
  3. Are you more of a dog or a cat person?
  4. Other than death, what is your greatest fear?
  5. What is your favorite place to visit and why?
  6. Do you consider yourself environmentally conscious? What are some things you do or some things you could improve on to better care for the Earth?
  7. Do you have any regrets or anything you wish you had done differently?
  8. What is the most embarrassing or craziest thing that has ever happened to you?
  9. Do you embrace change or fight it?
  10. What is your favorite cartoon show or character and why?
  11. Who was or has been your most influential teacher / mentor?

My Nominees

I actually don’t know any bloggers with less than 300 followers. So, if you happen to read this and want to nominate yourself, post your name and blog info in the comments section, and I will gladly help promote your blog!

Sorry for such a long, drawn-out post, but thanks for reading skimming!


Wednesday, June 18, 2014

Beast-Feeding

I'll preface this post by saying that if breastfeeding or talking about boobs makes you uncomfortable... well... either a) you've never been a parent, or b) you're a prude. No offense.

My son Miles loves, like LOVES breastfeeding. I think it may be his favorite thing in the world (well either that or our two dogs). I think it's his love for suckling at the breast that has enabled me to work full time for the last year without having to pump or do anything to maintain my milk supply (thanks prolactin and oxytocin!). But he loves it so much that it has turned into somewhat of a problem. Like he will shove his hand down my bra or lift up my shirt in public to try and breastfeed even when I know he is NOT hungry. I taught him the ASL sign for milk very early on, he knows how to do it, and yet lately he'd rather just unabashedly (and often unexpectedly) expose my breasts for all to see (followed by a tantrum when I say "No") rather than politely* ask me for milk like he did in the past. He also now refuses to be covered while breastfeeding, which makes it basically impossible to maintain any sort of modesty in public while he thrashes around to yank the nursing cover away. I really couldn't care less whether people see my boobs, but I do try to think of their feelings. Maybe they don't want to see my floppy jugs (or maybe they do, but then that might make my husband jealous), so I try to respect that. But Miles? Nope, he has no respect. The other issue with his affinity for breastfeeding is that it doesn't stop with the feeding aspect. The most recent change in his breastfeeding behavior is that he demands access to both breasts so that a) he can ogle them to decide which one looks the most appealing for feeding, b) he can look at or play with the other one while feeding (apparently they call that twiddling), and c) he can switch back and forth as he wants. What happened to my baby's manners? I know he is only 15 months old, but geez!

*In this case, politely refers to making the milk sign, while also saying "Mama" and whimpering/crying slightly - let's be real, you can't expect too much politeness from a baby.

Milk, NOW!

I have tried to counter these behaviors as best I can, but I can't seem to completely break his bad habits. Sometimes my parenting strategy will work one day, and I'm like "Aha! I win!" But then it doesn't EVER work again. I'm at a loss here. My baby is a breastfeeding BEAST! I'm really hoping it's just a phase (he is approaching the terrible twos or threes or whatever they are, after all). And while I LOVE the bonding of breastfeeding (it's seriously great!), these latest habits are exhausting, and so far he is showing no signs of self-weaning. I seriously hope his addiction love for breastfeeding ends by the time he is two (maybe two and a half?), otherwise I will have to cut him off. I'd hate to do that, but I'm not about to be breastfeeding a verbalizing toddler.

For now, I just have to tell myself that this beastly phase will pass and someday I will truly miss breastfeeding Miles. Because let's face it, I will probably look back and only remember the good things about it. And if not... well, at least I have a good story to tell his future spouse wife*!

*I confidently say wife because his strong affinity for boobs at the age of 15 months clearly indicates he is not gay (not that there is anything wrong with being gay).

Tuesday, June 10, 2014

Inspiration Vacation

I realize I haven't posted in over a month, but the truth is I have been lacking inspiration (or is it motivation?) to write a blog post. Maybe I'm just worn out from the semester? I did just finish the most difficult class I have ever taken AND managed to miraculously get an A! Boo-ya! It's the small victories, right? But while I myself have been slacking on the writing side of the blogging world, I have recently been reading a couple other blogs by some amazing, over-the-top clever moms, which are so laugh-out-loud, I-want-to-cry-with-laughter (oh wait I can't I'm at work) HILARIOUS that you will literally get a workout just by sitting at your computer! So check out theuglyvolvo.com and fightingfrumpy.com for some of the best stuff you will EVER read. Seriously. If you are a mom, dad, or parent-to-be, and especially if you want kids in the future, go there now. GO. No wonder I can't write anything. Nothing I post will ever be that good.