3 Down, 1 To Go

I have completed the first drafts of Chapters 1-3 and submitted them to my mentor for review. So far only minor corrections. She says I write beautifully, thank goodness... Now, I have one last chapter, Chapter 4: Discussion. I should feel like this:

But instead, I still feel like this:

Okay, maybe I'm over-exaggerating a bit. As my thesis is coming to a close, and the light at the end of the tunnel is now visible, I reflect on the last month or so of writing. There were definitely times at the start of this process that I felt like that picture above. But I think my timely progress has quelled those fears, and so, that initial panic has at least passed. Now, there are still times that I feel like this:Or even this: 

But mostly it's just this, a looming pest that's constantly at the back of my mind, constantly stalking me, and now I'm at the point that I just want it to leave me alone!:So I nicely ask myself (or maybe it's more of a reverberating question, asked over and over, obsessively in my mind - you never can tell): Well, then.... it would appear there is a fine line between sanity and insanity at this point, so I should probably stare at this advice-carrying signage for a few hours before getting back to it, 

all the whilst knowing that all of my never-ending hard work will NOT inevitably lead to this sort of situation at my defense: 

On a side note: I thought the spiral picture was cool! It reminds me of DNA!

Side note 2: Why did I just spend so much time working on this when I could have been halfway done with my future directions by now?

Side note 3: Matt is driving into ABQ to see me today and will be here until Wednesday!! I can't wait to see him!!

Side note 4: I think the explanation for my above question posed in side note 2 lies mostly in the anticipation for the arrival of a certain someone listed in side note 3.

Side note 5: I am in a very strange mood today and should probably stop. Now.

Chapter 1 First Draft Complete!!

Through much hard work and due diligence, I met my goal of completing Chapter 1 of my thesis by the end of today with give or take 6 minutes to spare. All I can say is "I want sleep." I literally cannot make any other words come out of my mouth. The only reason I can write anything right now is because I have just spent the last week (almost exactly) writing non-stop. So my conclusion is that my hands are in auto-pilot, using their muscle memory to write this blog post.

Anyways, it is seriously a relief to be done with that chapter. I thought it would never end. Next is Chapter 2, Materials and Methods, which I already have mostly done, so this next week shouldn't be as bad. Maybe I should try to finish that chapter by Friday, so I can have a few more days to work on the following chapters, which could arguably be fairly time-consuming.

Goodnight, I think I'm losing my mind now, and sleep is calling.

Update.

I think I might post regular updates on my thesis-writing progress. I think I'll use this as a way to keep myself on track and hold myself accountable. I rather like posting, but I can't post unless I've made a decent amount of progress!

So, progress report for today:

I now have a solid 28 pages written for my introduction, not including the 5 or 6 reference pages or title pages.

Short-term goals:

Write another 3-5 pages tonight, and finish the introduction by tomorrow.

I'll keep you posted!

June 21st. Judgment Day.

It's been decided. June 21st (or the less likely alternative, June 22nd) will be the day I defend my Master's thesis, which will determine if I get to update my CV. That gives me about a month to write an 80-page document consisting of 4 chapters. Yikes. I have about 15 solid pages of my introductory chapter written, not including the 15 or so title, dedication/acknowledgments, and reference pages, as well as about 12-15 pages for materials/methods and results. But there's still so much left to do. I have a couple experiments to complete, mountains of reading and writing to tackle, publishable figures to put together, and a kick-ass presentation to prepare for my defense. While I really do feel quite confident (overall) that I will achieve this goal and receive my degree, I feel very overwhelmed right now, and I am blinded by the narrow-vision that accompanies stress. You know, the kind of mental and literal visual block you feel when everything bombards you at once? Yeah. I just have to remind myself that it will get done and that these kinds of kicks in the butt (aka deadlines) are the driving forces necessary to promote the completion of long-standing projects. So now... to deactivate my Facebook account.




Also, I want this shirt.

Science Fail...

That's how I feel today.

Baby Roll

It's positive!

It's official! Matt and I are expecting our first child! We are so excited! We've been talking about names for a while, and we have a few picked out. At first I was opposed to these names, but with a last name like Roll, it's hard to take this too seriously. I mean, at least our kid will be unique!

Our top names:

Baby Roll!

For a boy,

1. Rock Nathanial Roll or "Rock N. Roll"
2. James Tiberius Roll or "Jim" aka "Captain Kirk"
3. Kaiser Matthew Roll or "Kai"

For a girl,

1. Ana Lynn Roll
2. Cinnamon Ann Roll or "Cinna" or "Nami"
3. California Brynn Roll or "Cali"
4. Clara Quinn Roll or "Tootsie" (Tootsie was the nickname of Clara, the daughter of the Tootsie Roll inventor)

On another note:
Neil deGrasse Tyson On Mars!

Maybe he went to Mars through Project Dawnstar - "Flights to Mars for $99" by Expedia.com.

APRIL FOOLS'!!!

My First Blog Entry

Well, I've always wanted to keep a diary or journal of some sort, but every time I start one, I never keep it up. So, I'm hoping that an actual Internet blog, where I can simply post pictures or short anecdotes, will suit me better.

It's such a nice day in Albuquerque!

Happy reading!